Why I No Longer Pray in Tongues—And How YAH Used It Anyway
For almost five years, I taught others how to be disciplined in prayer by praying in what I once called my heavenly language. I even led a whole prayer challenge around it. We were waking up early, seeking the face of YAHAWAH, praying in “tongues,” and genuinely desiring to get closer to Him. And you know what? He honored it—not because it was perfect theology, but because He knew I was earnestly seeking Him.
But something changed.
Not overnight. But over time.
As I kept pursuing Him, as I kept praying, listening, and writing, He started opening my eyes. The same Ruach (Spirit) that drew me to prayer was now leading me into truth. The kind of truth that peels back the veil. The kind of truth that doesn’t come from church tradition or catchy conference language—but from Scripture rightly divided.
The Day the Tongues Stopped
I’ll never forget it. I went to pray, as I had done countless times before, and it just… didn’t come out. The so-called “heavenly language” that used to flow easily was silent. I didn’t force it. I didn’t fake it. I just sat still.
And I heard, “You have understanding now.”
The scales had fallen off.
When I went back to Acts 2—the very passage I once used to teach others about this gift—I noticed something that had somehow been invisible before:
“And they were all filled with the Ruach HaQodesh, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.” (Acts 2:4, KJV)
With other tongues.
Not “in an unknown language,” not gibberish or private syllables, but with the known languages of the people gathered in Jerusalem that day. Parthians, Medes, Elamites… (Acts 2:9–11).
That chapter hit different.
It became clear: this wasn’t some personal, private, coded language between man and YAH. It was a supernatural act where the disciples spoke in the native languages of those present, so they could hear the wonderful works of YAH in their own tongue. It wasn’t emotionalism—it was evangelism.
What About the Voice I Heard?
Here’s where it gets even deeper.
Back then, I didn’t just pray in tongues. I also prayed in my known language. Then I would go silent—and write. I called it “pray, listen, write.” Over 500 blog posts were birthed from that flow. I believed I was hearing the voice of YAH.
And you know what? I still do.
Even now, in this season, the Ruach HaQodesh has led me back to many of those same blog posts, reminding me that what I wrote then was for now. It was like spiritual time travel. He used my own obedience to encourage me in my current journey.
Of course, I had questions.
“Was that really You, YAH?”
And He answered—without a shadow of doubt.
I’ve learned since then that any voice you hear must line up with the Word of YAH. That’s your filter. That’s your confirmation. If it contradicts Scripture, it’s not from Him—period.
But here’s what I know for sure:
We are all on a journey. And being led into all truth (John 16:13) isn’t a one-time event—it’s a process. It’s a stripping away. It’s a refining.
Examining Everything
A few months ago, I told my Sistie (my sister + bestie) that I felt like YAHAWAH was leading me to examine EVERYTHING.
Church/Churches I followed online
Prayer.
Tongues.
Teachers I followed.
Beliefs I held.
Habits I formed.
It was like the Ruach was saying:
“Put it all on the table.”
Where did you get that belief?
Who taught you that doctrine?
Does it align with My Word—or just your favorite preacher’s interpretation?
It wasn’t to shame me. It was to refine me.
To sanctify me through His truth (John 17:17).
To remove the mixture and deception, and anchor me in what’s actually written.
I’m still in that process. And I’ll probably be in it for the rest of my life. But this is the first public piece of the journey that I am led to share.
Because truth—real, raw, biblical truth—is worth sharing.
Final Thoughts
If you’re reading this and feeling the tug to re-examine some things… lean into it. Don’t be afraid to ask the hard questions. Don’t be afraid to let go of what’s not true—even if it’s what brought you closer to YAH in a past season.
Because He used it to lead you to Him.
And now, He’s leading you deeper.
“And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” (John 8:32)
We must all study to show ourselves approved (2 Timothy 2:15), and in all our getting—get understanding (Proverbs 4:7). Because truth isn’t just a theological position—it’s a Person. And He’s calling us into alignment with Him.
And on this very day—called Pentecost by the Greeks but known in Scripture as the Feast of Weeks/Shavuot—I’m overwhelmed with gratitude. I can honestly say that I’ve come far enough into the Truth to honor all the appointed feast days this year so far:
✅ Passover
✅ Feast of Unleavened Bread
✅ Feast of Weeks
These aren’t man-made holidays or seasonal traditions. These are appointed times that YAHAWAH said we must observe forever (Leviticus 23). And I now understand the weight and wonder of that command. I also keep the Sabbath—from Friday evening to Saturday evening—and let me just say, I love it! (I'll share more about that in another post.)
And yes… I now use His Paleo Hebrew Name, YAHAWAH. That’s another blog post too for a later time. But whew, clearly I see now why He told me to get back to my assignment of writing.
There is much more He wants me to share.
And I’m ready. And even if I wasn’t…I will be obedient.
HalleluYAH.
Your Assignment:
Devotional Prompt: Led Into All Truth
“Howbeit when He, the Spirit of truth, is come, He will guide you into all truth…”
—John 16:13 (KJV)
Take a moment to quiet your heart before YAHAWAH. Ask Him to reveal what truth He wants to lead you into next.
Journal Prompt:
“Father YAHAWAH, what beliefs, traditions, or practices do You want me to examine in this season? What is truth—and what have I accepted that is not of You?”
Pray:
“Abba YAHAWAH, I want to walk in Truth—not tradition. Show me what honors You. Remove anything that has kept me from fully knowing You. I trust You to lovingly lead me, and I’m willing to lay everything on the table if it means drawing closer to You. In the name of YAHAWASHI, so be it.”
Then listen.
And write what He shows you.
P.S. If you resonated with this post or have questions, feel free to email me: info@onassignmentbygod.com
P.S. #2: This post feels very much like the very first post I shared back in 2019. I was nervous, but it was necessary. May we all all stay obedient and be On Assignment by God (YAH).